ades, and you think that it's crazy, sad, but it won't happen to you. I feel my heart in its cage and I try not to think about my mortality anymore. And last night I fell down the stairs a good couple of steps and had to stop myself with the railing. Might have fractured a toe and I have burns on my wrists. I guess it could have been worse like the accident but it's fine. People are noticing that I'm looking worse by the day, I get that it's out of concern but please leave me alone. Let me get through this, let me handle it, like I've done this entire time. Then I think about the stories I hear about people that have gone on for 20 years, and I am nearly halfway there. Trying to remember when the lines between habit and addiction blurred is impossible by this point, but I can't imagine going on much longer like this. You hear things about people living like this for decades, and you think that it's crazy, sad, but it won't happen to you. I feel my heart in its cage and I try not to think about my mortality anymore.And last night I fell down the stairs a good couple of steps and had to stop myself with the railing. Might have fractured a toe and I have burns on my wrists. I guess it could have been worse like the accident but it's fine. People are noticing that I'm looking worse by the day, I get that it's out of concern but please leave me alone. Let me get through this, let me handle it, like I've done this entire time. Then I think about the stories I hear about people that have gone on for 20 years, and I am nearly halfway there. Trying to remember when the lines between habit and addiction blurred is impossible by this point, but I can't imagine going on much longer like this. You hear things about people living like this for decades, and you think that it's crazy, sad, but it won't happen to you. I feel my heart in its cage and I try not to think about my mortality anymore.And last night I fell down the stairs a good couple of steps and had to stop myself with the railing. Might have fractured a toe and I have burns on my wrists. I guess it could have been worse like the accident but it's fine. People are noticing that I'm looking worse by the day, I get that it's out of concern but please leave me alone. Let me get through this, let me handle it, like I've done this entire time. Then I think about the stories I hear about people that have gone on for 20 years, and I am nearly halfway there. Trying to remember when the lines between habit and addiction blurred is impossible by this point, but I can't imagine going on much longer like this. You hear things about people living like this for decades, and you think that it's crazy, sad, but it won't happen to you. I feel my heart in its cage and I try not to think about my mortality anymore.And last night I fell down the stairs a good couple of steps and had to stop myself with the railing. Might have fractured a toe and I have burns on my wrists. I guess it could have been worse like the accident but it's fine. People are noticing that I'm looking worse by the day, I get that it's out of concern but please leave me alone. Let me get through this, let me handle it, like I've done this entire time. Then I think about the stories I hear about people that have gone on for 20 years, and I am nearly halfway there. Trying to remember when the lines between habit and addiction blurred is impossible by this point, but I can't imagine going on much longer like this. You hear things about people living like this for decades, and you think that it's crazy, sad, but it won't happen to you. I feel myades, and you think that it's crazy, sad, but it won't happen to you. I feel my heart in its cage and I try not to think about my mortality anymore. And last night I fell down the stairs a good couple of steps and had to stop myself with the railing. Might have fractured a toe and I have burns on my wrists. I guess it could have been worse like the accident but it's fine. People are noticing that I'm looking worse by the day, I get that it's out of concern but please leave me alone. Let me get through this, let me handle it, like I've done this entire time. Then I think about the stories I hear about people that have gone on for 20 years, and I am nearly halfway there. Trying to remember when the lines between habit and addiction blurred is impossible by this point, but I can't imagine going on much longer like this. You hear things about people living like this for decades, and you think that it's crazy, sad, but it won't happen to you. I feel my heart in its cage and I try not to think about my mortality anymore.And last night I fell down the stairs a good couple of steps and had to stop myself with the railing. Might have fractured a toe and I have burns on my wrists. I guess it could have been worse like the accident but it's fine. People are noticing that I'm looking worse by the day, I get that it's out of concern but please leave me alone. Let me get through this, let me handle it, like I've done this entire time. Then I think about the stories I hear about people that have gone on for 20 years, and I am nearly halfway there. Trying to remember when the lines between habit and addiction blurred is impossible by this point, but I can't imagine going on much longer like this. You hear things about people living like this for decades, and you think that it's crazy, sad, but it won't happen to you. I feel my heart in its cage and I try not to think about my mortality anymore.And last night I fell down the stairs a good couple of steps and had to stop myself with the railing. Might have fractured a toe and I have burns on my wrists. I guess it could have been worse like the accident but it's fine. People are noticing that I'm looking worse by the day, I get that it's out of concern but please leave me alone. Let me get through this, let me handle it, like I've done this entire time. Then I think about the stories I hear about people that have gone on for 20 years, and I am nearly halfway there. Trying to remember when the lines between habit and addiction blurred is impossible by this point, but I can't imagine going on much longer like this. You hear things about people living like this for decades, and you think that it's crazy, sad, but it won't happen to you. I feel my heart in its cage and I try not to think about my mortality anymore.And last night I fell down the stairs a good couple of steps and had to stop myself with the railing. Might have fractured a toe and I have burns on my wrists. I guess it could have been worse like the accident but it's fine. People are noticing that I'm looking worse by the day, I get that it's out of concern but please leave me alone. Let me get through this, let me handle it, like I've done this entire time. Then I think about the stories I hear about people that have gone on for 20 years, and I am nearly halfway there. Trying to remember when the lines between habit and addiction blurred is impossible by this point, but I can't imagine going on much longer like this. You hear things about people living like this for decades, and you think that it's crazy, sad, but it won't happen to you. I feel my